What a life!

There is always a backside to it all. As I sit here my world is collapsing. It should have been grand, but right now I'm just about to give up.. Sad, but true!

I hope my world will be better soon - again. No doubt about my decision regarding love. It is only for the best, but there is this fucking (pardon) issue called money. Just think about it. A person owes me approx. dkk 70.000,-, which is quite a lot, and here I sit thinking about how to get dkk 15.000,- by the first - and hopefully by tomorrow to be able to pay the deposite for my new appartment. It sucks! Especially, when I have tried to get the person to pay the money for me.... And the bank. Well, if it was possible, maybe I should just quit having a bank. What's the purpose if the cannot help for a few days.

It is just not good.

What a life! I hope I get out on the other side without to much damage. Maybe I will be lucky after all. Nobody knows what tomorrow brings. With a little luck it is a helping hand. In the meantime I will sit close to my boyfriend, hold his hands and feel his warmth. That will for sure be something possitive.

Hope you all have a wonderful day and enjoy the summer.

A new start...

Now I see the light at the end of the tunnel - a new appartment. Just being able to imagine how the future will be is wonderful. Now I only need the job, but it will be there in good time. Positivity and visualization - that may be the only two ingrediences to a job! No one can tell what tomorrow may bring, so why be negative?

And until the job is there I will pack my things, write on my book, paint some pictures and make love to my boyfriend.

Love.. <3

Life
Just sitting here life is easy
Love
The most amazing feeling
Love your life
And your life will be filled with love

I have during the past five or six days turned my life upside down. 'Cause eventhough love is amazing it is also difficult. I am blessed with a fantastic boyfriend - I'm sure he's the man I'm going to love forever and ever, but... Because there is always a but! Isn't that right? We cannot live together. We have tried for 1½ years, and it is no good. But we love each other, so we are now moving, so he will have his place and me and the girls will have ours. This has not been easy to decide, but we are aware that we choose both love and life - it is because we want to be together that we move away from each other! Strange...

You know? This is one of the most adult decisions I have ever made. To let go! To choose love over any other feeling. And luckily Kasper feels the same way. Now we are both at peace.

I look forward to not feeling guilty, because I want to sew or read or write. I look forward to visits and being absorbed - just him and me and love without irritations without discussions. Just love! Nice hours with lots of love - him, me and the girls - him, me, the girls and our families...

Love is amazing
Life is amazing
But we have to find out how to combine the two
Now the love in my life is right
Love <3